Archive for April, 2009
Thursday, April 30th, 2009
I work on impulse. If I start being a little productive, and keep it up, after a while, I’m back in the game, so to speak. But as soon as I stop, it snowballs in the opposite direction, and I end up with no drive at all. So, I started to take that small first step toward working that drive back up again.
I listed everything I need to do very specifically; simple tasks for various projects with easily measurable results. So, I while I didn’t exactly start it up today, I’ll be starting tomorrow. Starting on that list.
Wednesday, April 29th, 2009
I have a morbid sense of excitement over the (possible) flu pandemic. I’ve lost so much in the past few months, I’ve almost stopped feeling alive anymore, so witnessing a worldwide event that has everyone almost as on edge as I’ve been the past few months almost makes me feel better.
At least we’re all in the same boat this time. That, and, as a long-time germophobe —and an even longer-time loner—suddenly, I’m looking decidedly normal. I’m still doing what I normally do, drive around alone at night looking for good shots to take.
Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
Seeing this made my afternoon, perhaps my day. Considering that my days lately consist mostly of working for invisible paychecks or sitting around waiting for the day to end, yes, it definitely made my day.
Every time I’ve seen things written on the backs of cars, it’s been drivel about how the driver “hearts” a certain friend, family member, boyfriend, or school group, not science. And especially not in backward-ass central Florida.
One day, reason will rule. That’s what I believe.
Monday, April 27th, 2009
Several forces led me to the location where I took this photo. I tried out a variant of geocaching dreamed up by the guy who writes the XKCD web comic wherein a hash is derived from the opening value of the Dow for a given day, and that is combined with the coordinates of a particular zone to derive a set of coordinates you’re supposed to visit on that day. It’s called Geohashing.
See, the other day, I downloaded a geohashing app for my Android phone that makes finding your location as simple as choosing today’s date. I saw today’s location was actually on my route back from school, and ended up where this photo was shot.
I love all of these geo games (geocaching, geohashing, geodashing, etc.) because they literally turn the physical world into your playground. With the GPS on my phone, and all the free time I’ve got these days, I’ll have to get hashing.
Sunday, April 26th, 2009
I spent the weekend working on the kitchen remodel, so it’s been a good weekend. I also perused some computers at CompUSA today; my laptop is definitely dying of old age at this point, and I need to have a new system I can transfer my work to by the time it finally kicks the bucket.
Yes, it’s more money when I’ve got very little, but after making due with very little for a while, money stops feeling real anymore anyway. That’s as best as I can explain it.
I’m still brainstorming ideas for some kind of new web app or something, anything to challenge me, to give me some development practice, to give to the internets. Times like these, where we’ve got so little there’s nothing left to lose, are where good ideas come from.
Saturday, April 25th, 2009
After a lot of prep-work, my kitchen remodel (on the cheap) is finally starting to take shape. The paint makes a world of difference. Tomorrow, I’m going to tile the back splash with my brother, and after that, I’m going to do the finishing touches on the paintjob (e.g. edges, primer baseboards).
It’s good to have a little brightness; without it, I’d be lost. Even if it’s something as simple as physical labor with immediate, visual results. I need this.
Friday, April 24th, 2009
Three months, and I still can’t shake that feeling of being something like a ghost wandering aimlessly. I’ve fallen into the fringe of society, become almost a hermit.
With no purchasing power left, I find no reason to go to stores, malls, or anywhere else dollar-driven. Instead, I drive. I read. I keep up to date on web development trends and techniques while I wait for the person I’m doing sub-contract work for to dole out assignments at a glacial pace matched only by the pace at which he doles out paychecks.
So, I drove around the local mall today to pretend like I did something on this Friday night. I’ve skipped out on going to downtown Orlando for a few drinks with friends for weeks now, because I cannot afford the cost of even a single drink, or parking, or anything.
Once I finish updating my portfolio, I’ll be able to attempt to find more work. While highly unlikely, at least I’ll have a better shot. The real thing I’m focusing on right now is an idea, because a solid idea, put to action, is the only thing that can get me out of this ghost-like stupor and back out of the fringe.
Thursday, April 23rd, 2009
As long as I’m moving in a direction, I’ll be OK. I just can’t stand still, whatever I do.
When this year started, I had an overarching set of goals, and several subsets of goals I needed to reach along the way. And along the way, I realized many of them were unrealistic. For example, there’s no way I’m going to be in a position to move to Seattle and join the tech workforce out there within a year at this point.
So, I make do with what I’ve got. And what I’ve got is a good computer-related skill-set, a lot of talent and ingenuity, and a limitless drive. Recessionary economies are where great ideas are born, and I’ve got those great ideas brewing in my head.
This isn’t the time to play it safe. Safe gets you nowhere.
Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009
Citrus orange. That’s the color I’m painting my kitchen. It should be about done tomorrow.
I spoke with an old friend from Miami today, mostly about art stuff, and how at 28, we’re at a stage in life where we’ve got to decide whether to go against or toward the mainstream, live a life based on you and your art, or get a boring nine-to-five job like the rest of society.
I’d say I chose the art route, but I never had a choice, it just happened gradually. I went with the flow, and that’s where the flow took me, so it’s time to embrace it. For too long, I’ve been trying to fight my inclination toward art in a futile attempt to lead a simple, if boring life.
Tuesday, April 21st, 2009
It’s been a hundred days since I started Project 365, and that makes it officially the longest I’ve kept with something in my entire life. I’ve seriously never been able to focus on something every single day for over three months before, so forme, this is an great achievement.
I had a little lunch meeting at Panera in Winter Park this afternoon; charged with my credit card so that I can deduct it as a business expense. I’m a freelancer. The jobs in my field are nil, so I’m sticking to the game. I faltered when things got tough, but, I know that in the long term, I’m going to be glad that I decided not to go back to working the nine-to-five for some random company.
In fact, once I really start doing well, and get more experience, I’ll strike it out on my own. I’m going to make up for lost time. And money.