Posts Tagged ‘unemployment’
Day Ninety Four | 1999-2009
Wednesday, April 15th, 2009
I’m spent.
All I ate all day today was a veggie burger, and I’ve been doing coding work and listening to drum and bass so long that my head is spinning. I just got off the phone with one of my few friends, and she could hear the haggard, defeated person I am in my voice.
The little freelance work I’ve been doing, I haven’t been paid for yet, because the guy I’m working for hasn’t gotten paid yet, because the clients aren’t doing so well, naturally, because of the recession. So, I’m working for money that I don’t know when I will get, and I’ve got enough cash to pay this month’s mortgage. Then, I’m officially out of money. Getting my portfolio finished has never been as important as it is now.
This June it will have been ten years since I graduated high school, and even if I wanted to go (and I definitely don’t), right now I can’t even afford the tickets to my 10-year reunion. It’s definitely nowhere near where I thought I’d be in life when I was 18 and just beginning to piss all over my potential.
I’m 28, I own the bank owns my home me, I’m dead broke, without a real job, still trying to finish a Bachelors degree, farther from getting hitched getting laid than I’ve ever been in my life, and I haven’t made any sort of dent in this world. Were I an F-student fucking around and smoking weed all day (like the people I ended up hanging out with a few years after high school), the state I’m in wouldn’t be entirely unimaginable at 18. But, I was always beyond the top 1% in everything I ever did, I was one of the elite nerds with the towering IQs and GPAs and SAT scores and I sacrificed my entire social life for my studies, and…
And here I am, ten years later, and spent.
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Category Project 365, personal, photography, rants | Tags: Tags: expectations, failure, reunion, unemployment,
Day Eighty Five | At the Bottom of the Sea
Monday, April 6th, 2009
The living room I’ve been using to make a living is no longer being used for that… because the little freelance work I’ve been doing has fallen through.
Now, I’ve got no work, enough cash to survive for at most two months, and I’m stuck in an area with 10% unemployment, where the few jobs available lie in the healthcare and hospitality industries. Oh, and it’s my birthday.
At least I’ve still got my camera.
The camera keeps me going.
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Category Project 365, photography, work | Tags: Tags: fail, job, unemployment,
Day Five | Moving On
Friday, January 16th, 2009
Day Five. I never thought I’d start 2009 off with losing the job (and the company) I had put so much of myself into for two years. I didn’t think it would end this way, with the whole world seeming a little off, a little out of focus.
I’ve got to keep on keepin’ on, as they say, and although the prospects down the road look bright (especially for the economic mess we’re in), I’m just not sure what to do. Everything’s kind of stagnant, and I’m in limbo, in between one stage of life and the next. I wanted change; I didn’t know how it would hit me.
I suppose the term to describe this situation is “bittersweet”. Being free and not knowing what lies ahead, I guess that’s really the best we can ask for in life, come to think of it. And sure you’re going to be apprehensive at first, but having a world of prospects ahead of you, in spite of the dangers, is living…. I’m going to start living.
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Category Project 365, living, photography | Tags: Tags: job, life, unemployment,